Splits are never good, and are much worse when done in the public eye and more than just you and your ex are involved. 

In a new book Our Shoes, Our Selves, which features a series of women talking about what particular shoes mean to them, Bridget Moynahan reveals how motorcycle boots helped save her sanity as she prepared to give birth to her ex Tom Brady’s child, as he started dating supermodel Gisele Bundchen

The 47-year-old also discussed the circus her life became in a recent interview with People. She welcomed their son John in August of 2007, and despite having a newborn, no one would cut her a break.

“I would have cars following me, and men hiding in the bushes outside my house,” Moynahan said. “As a new mother, you want to just protect your child. That kind of attention felt like a threat.”

While hiding out in Barneys, Moynahan found her dream shoes. “I thought, that’s what I need. Let me get a little bit of my ‘New York’ back, a little armor,” she said.

Since then, things have calmed down. She married Andrew Frankel in 2015. Bundchen and Brady have been happily married since 2009, and they share Benjamin, 9, and Vivian, 6.

And … she and Brady (and Bundchen and Frankel) have made their peace.

“Tom and I made a decision to raise a child together and we both found partners that not only supported us in raising that child, but also loved our child as if he was their own,” she said.