After nearly a month of silence on Twitter, Chrissy Teigen has opened up on the loss of her and husband John Legend’s third child, Jack, in a deeply personal essay. In the essay, posted on October 27th, she wrote that she “…had no idea when I would be ready to write this. Part of me thought it would be early on, when I was still really feeling the pain of what happened.” She goes on to address what happened, saying “I wrote this because I knew for me I needed to say something before I could move on from this and return back to life…Jack will always be loved.” This is the first time Teigen has detailed the devastation of her loss, but she also managed to maintain her signature sense of humor, writing that the ordeal has made her “…an adult diaper expert”.